So sitting here wondering where my life got off track..... moved out and now having to consequently move back home.... got a $270 phone bill, so fuck! working my ass off as much as they will let me, hello 8 days in a row >_<....... having nothing really for money after all is said and done, making the time put in at work rather pointless.... and having little creative flame, and the times it does spark it is quickly admonished..... in love with someone who i am starting to question in regards to how he feels.... and left here alone in the darkness wondering when things will change... when i won't be so alone... when i can feel the loved i had come back to me.... realizing how sad it is that my only way of venting out all my emotional crap is over a computer to people i may have never even met and who probably don't give two hoots and will most likely delete this before ever reading it.... thinking that i'm hearing the rum bottle calling me from the kitchen, and thinking i might just answer its call..../

ttfn Ducky. <3